I'm not saying bad words for  a while because it was getting out of hand and I couldn't control them/ I was saying them towards my parents and in front of ppl I shouldn't/ they legitimize my upsetness and I feed off them/ it decredits me and what I'm saying/ Jason's irritation toward them is actually beginning to be warranted/ I say them compulsively fifteen times in a row sometimes and that's pretty weird.

So here's my log. Strangely enough, none of these were said in front of anyone. I'm sorry bloggy friend, some of the reasons are private so  I'm shorthanding them.... I also probly am forgetting/ didn't notice some

12-25: F- flow came to town (gross, this old guy said that on SATC)

12-26: 2F- I mutilated my eyebrow

12-27: F- I thought I forgot to turn in some bio thing, but I didn't

F- MySpace J/T

12-28: Today was ridiculous. I don't even know. Once I said F as I was worrying about junk, realized I said it and said Dmnit.

Another time I expanded vocab by saying Fer, so that was exciting, but it wasn't toward something so it was funny because... that means you're calling something it

But really, today's been horrible. I don't even remember.

I guess I'm subconsciously freer now that I'm away from my grandparents