BUt first, I must say I did absolutely horrible on my not cussing today, despite trying really hard. I guess since this was my first day out of the grandparents element. But... I definately maxed a dozen, one of which was in front of Megan when I made a joke about the horse poo at Salem Lake and then I used the B word (which previously I hadn't used in FOREVER, like, a month) to jokingly describe myself in front of Megan and Ryan.
24 deep questions that will really tell you something about me. Not stupid questions like "what is your favorite movie?"
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someone’s eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Looking into someone's eyes when I'm telling them how I feel. Because... I'll probly start crying even if I'm not looking at them and I don't want them to see me crying so.... I would say the people I feel most comfortable crying in front of are Jason and Megan. Though... I don't usually talk to Megan about things that would make me cry because she's usually not a good listener and I wouldn't want to talk to Jason about it cuz number 1. being sad isn't an attractive personality trait and 2. crying makes you look unattractive.
I dunno. I like listening to other people and trying to help them. There is one person that I don't like looking in the eye when they tell me how they feel because I feel like I've betrayed her so... any time she confides in me I feel pretty bad. And then when a certain topic is brought up about which I've pretty much lied to a lot of people about.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry?
Gah. I dunno. I guess I was pretty angry two nights ago when they said I couldn't drop math. But... if I was describing the emotion that wouldn't have been my description.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who is it to?
Jason. Though I'm nowhere near happy about that. Really I'm embarrassed about that. But I can tell bloggy man because, though people read this I suppose, I don't see them when they read it and they rarely talk to me about it.
Thank goodness cuz the first time Cameron talked to me about it I seriously considered deleting it.
4. You are at the doctor's office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live.
(1) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?
I tell the important people because I don't want to spend my time being pitied but I also want to have a good time.
(2) What do you do with your remaining days?
I lose my virginity to Jason and then I'd have sex with whomever is good at it. I might try some drugs. I might do some things I've always wanted to like hot air balloon ride or sky dive. But then again, all those things are thing that are really for the moment and I wouldn't want to die without having done them but at the same time... they aren't really things I'd want to spend my last month on. So I guess I'd be sad I hadn't been a slut and lost my virginity earlier. Ummm... I don't know what else. Probably just spend quality time with the important people and tell them all the things I would regret not telling them. ANd apologize for things. And write all the things that I want people to remember down.
(3) Would you be afraid?
No. I'm not "afraid" of death. I'm not worried about what happens after. I'm really really really sad about it and I'm pissed about it. And I would be even more pissed. Because my main thing is that there isn't enough time to skim even the top of the iceberg of what the world has to offer.
5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love. Which do you choose?
Love, duh. Trust is boring and monotenous and purposeless. I don't need stability. ANd the idea that trust comes with love is ludicrous. TO me love is zsa zsa zsu and trust... is the opposite of that. I'm not ruling out the possibility of trust in a zsa zsa zsu relationship, but I think they're far from automatic.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you save the dog?
Heck yes. I would never forgive myself otherwise.
7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell them?
Man, I can't keep anything like that secret.
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you say?
I'd probly give it a try. But I'm make him/her promise not to let it ruin our friendship if it didn't work out.
Well, I'd like to think I'd give it a try. But I'm running through my bfs in my head and... ew.
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Do you do it?
Heck no. If it was someone I had unfinished business with I guess I might.
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Ummm.... Yes, because I'm up for anything and I need more friends like that. That's one of my most important qualities in a significant other.
But on the other hand I might find me annoying, and possibly embarrassing. I can also be negative... occasionally.
11. Does love = sex?
What does that even mean? If you love someone do you screw them? A rapist could make that argument.
12. Your boss tells your co-worker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your co-worker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company?
Sure, especially if I could find another job.
13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say?
I dunno, probly the last time I wanted to. I always do that. I can't keep my mouth shut. It's bad for me.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back?
Definately that I love them. Cuz I'm pathetic.
15. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you love them?
Urg. Um. Talking to my Grandad on the phone Tuesday. I love love love love love him.
17. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to even if you have "no regrets" what would you change?
Ummm.... Not picking a fight over nothing with my best friend in 1st grade and then having him leave really suddenly so I never saw him again in 1st grade.
18. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, and you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
the police. or better yet, FBI agents
20. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
Uh yeah. And if you wouldn't I do not want to be your friend.
21. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death?
My grandmom. Especially since my grandmother is a wonderful person, and though it would probly be harder to let her fall, she would be telling me to because she's lived a nice, long life.
22. Are you old fashioned?
Um. No. I used to be old fashioned about what I wanted in a relationship but... I'm way over that. In fact, I can't even think of what I found appealing about it. Gah. I was such a loser.
23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
I mean... everyday. I've pretty much just been in the house today though. I think the nicest thing I've done was call Wade "Brother best friend."
24. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or to have never loved at all?
True love, of course. I mean, I suppose I've already chosen that. I don't expect high school romances to last. But not lasting does not equal not being true.
