-I'm wondering whether there's anyone I tell absolutely everything.

-And I'm going with no.

-But I'm going to modify that by saying that there are many people that I would.... It's just that I haven't really spent time with most of them in years.

-Then there are people that I definately would who I do spend time with. And that I could. It's just that I don't particularly want to. And they probably don't particularly want me to. But if I needed to I could and I have.

-But there is one person in particular that I don't tell everything but I absolutely positively would aaaaaand would absolutely positively like to.

 It's a strange phenomena that I've thought about. The levels at which people know each other. And I don't think I'd ever experienced this as strongly before: Knowing someone so well and becoming such integral parts of each other's lives that context and relatability no longer matters. Conversation is introduced by way of shared interests and situation, as a general rule. I tell Josh a story about running or Claire a story about writing because it fits their interest. I tell a passenger in my car a story because it relates to something we just passed on the side of the road. But there's this new level of relationship where I share something not because it relates to them or is at all important or even all that interesting, but simply because I've been thinking about it, it affected me.... And you're giving an update on your life that they have no reason to care about except that they care about you and your lives have merged so that what matters to one is instantly vital to the other.

And that's how this person is....

But like I said, I require explanation for everything and I need good timing and I need time and these are all things we don't have. So even though we have the kind of relationship and we do have a person to tell everything to, I don't have that kind of relationship and don't have a person to tell everything to.

And as we spend less time together I become more withdrawn and wonder whether I will ever have that again with this person.

And if we won't have that, whether we will have anything at all.

Whether I want to have anything at all.

Just like Sinatra.

So basically, in conclusion, I would say no. I don't have anyone that I tell absolutely everything. However....